I just
can’t seem to walk away when something isn’t working. I mean, I won’t
even put down an awful book without finishing it. I can be reading
the worst book ever written, and I will slowly, painfully take it in
a few pages at a time because I’m not interested enough to really
read it and I can’t just not finish it.
I
guess I’m the same why about a project. I’m working on this awful
photo challenge right now. I’m struggling with it in fact. And what’s
sad is that I’ve been at it for well over a month, and I wanted to do
it in August from start to finish.
I had
such lofty intentions. I thought I could learn about my camera, learn
how it works, how to do new and interesting things with it and have
this wonderful learning experience.
I have
learned a thing or two about the camera and that has been worth the
price of admission. So, if anything, I should be grateful for that,
even if I have only really completed a third of the prompts, taken
images for another third and still have a third to go.
It’s
been a nice summer here for the most part, but August is hot. I
loathe walking around in the day. Walking around in the day and with
this heavy camera around my neck too. If you really want to know
about me, I loved all my times with my toy cameras. My Holga is 100%
plastic and it weighs nothing. But my DSLR is another story. And for
some really fucked up reason I feel like photography is kind of
boushie. I mean, I’m astounded at how much I paid for my camera and
by all standards in the digital camera world, my camera is now
considered old and obsolete. Considering I used to shoot with a
Pentax K1000 and it was made for 25 years and only became obsolete
when film did, a DSLR that’s a couple of years old should not seem
obsolete. I hate the chasing the next thing. But these are only
excuses.
I just
need to do it. I still have lessons I need to learn. I still have
time to finish this creative challenge. Most of the challenges I do I
finish early, this one will finish late. If it takes two months to
take 30 pictures, who would be the wiser, really?
So,
there it is. The question is, can I do it? Can I finish?